It was recently her birthday, June 10th actually, and she requested a poem from our mom, who as you may know passed away 3 years ago. Cynthia can channel anyone from jesus christ to the cat you owned 10 years ago. Animal poems are always hilarious it's really funny to see their attitudes come through in writing. We have this cat, Muffin, who pretty much behaves like a queen, she dominates the household and only barely allows my cat, Rascal, to live in our house. When we got a poem from her she acted exactly as she behaved, full of pomp and royalty and sass. She actually flirted with the guys of the family! She loves and craves attention and sometimes it can be really maddenning lol.
Wow talk about maddenning I cannot for the life of me copy this poem over. Fuck you adobe reader and your stupid formats, what a shit program. Arg ANGRY NIC. I tell it to save a copy as plain text and it fucking brings out some alien language jibberish. What fucking monkey programmed this garbage? Updating the bloody thing...
Ok finally, here is the transmission (It seems the beings of the angelic realm are quite pleased with my work!) have a look:
MOTHER-LOVE June 13 10
Oh sweetheart
so many aches and pains lately
so many ways the body complains
and says no
don’t like this
don’t want this
don’t want to be here
right now
And when these days come
I know there’s a part of you
that feels so very small
and would give anything
to have my arms around you again
And in those moments
sometimes
there’s a voice in you that says
come on
you’re all grown up now
no excuse
A young woman should be able
to manage these things better
and isn’t it time
for the vulnerability to stop
so you can walk
in a woman’s shoes
all day long?
But why don’t we just
tell that voice to hush for awhile
and let the little girl speak
the way she needs to
because the truth is
we never stop needing a mother
no matter how old we get
and no matter how distant
our mother’s arms
Perhaps it’s the legacy
of the paternal religions
but the fact is
Spirit is our Mother
always has been
and it’s her we miss
when we feel alone
it’s her lap we want to crawl onto
it’s her voice we want to hear
singing a sweet song
and it’s her warm bosom
where we want to rest our head
not against the muscle and bone
and scratchy beard
of the Father
that can all be saved
for another time
So for starters
you go right ahead
and miss me
and wish for me
and remember me
and don’t feel bad about it
in any way, ever
because it’s just your heart’s way
of reaching for me angel
and I love to feel you
wanting me
just like I reach for you
every day
We have these mistaken ideas
about growing up
that somehow it will make things easier
because we will feel less vulnerable
and we’ll be automatically stronger
because our body is taller
older
more mature
The truth is
vulnerability ebbs and flows
like a tide
throughout our lives
and yes
there are certain blessings
about not being small any more
but the fact is
it can be extra scary to find yourself
in an adult body
with adult responsibilities
too old to be looked after
but too young to have it figured out yet
and all the while people look at you
and treat you like you should have it all together
so it becomes even harder
to admit to one’s own fragility
after awhile
But that is the greatest mistake
anyone can make
although so many people do
because it’s when we start to shut down
our honest and child-like admissions
of not knowing
not being sure
feeling afraid and overwhelmed
that we also shut down our light
because you can’t hide your fear
without hiding your joy
that’s just the way it works
something I know
you already know
Imagine a world
where all the grown ups
let themselves be child-like
when they needed to
and I don’t mean child-ish
cause there’s a difference
between the two
Child-ish is what grownups act
when they are not allowed to reveal
their actual child-like natures
because in truth
the only path toward real maturity
is that of the child
full of wonder
reverence
playfulness
and unabashed Mother-love
It’s childish to deny
our vulnerable hearts
it’s childish to be afraid
of the child within
and so you must promise me
that you will never stop playing
never censor that incredible
child-like laugh of yours
and the matching smile that lights up the room
You see it warms my heart
to know that you can be you
in any situation
because that means you feel safe enough
in the world to do so
safe in your pretty women’s shoes
safe in your skin
So now we’ve settled that
I want to tell you
how proud I am of you
stepping out into the world
because I know
more than anyone
just what it takes for you
to get through each day sometimes
but isn’t it better sweetheart
isn’t it better in so many ways
than it used to be
to have found the answer
that once you see yourself
as belonging in the world
suddenly the world starts to see you too
and instead of dangers
there are possibilities all around you
instead of strangers
all different kinds of friends
I’ve watched you starting to try on
that gorgeous flamboyance you had
when you first stepped into womanhood
I’ve watched it return
and smiled at how much
you remind me of me sometimes
when I was younger
so shy inside
and such a hotty outside
and isn’t it fun
to turn heads again
isn’t it good to not be afraid to be noticed
for the beautiful creature that you are?
And part of it is
that you are letting your grief move in a new way
it’s been long enough since our parting
that you are more brave about looking at the layers
than ever before
and of course you have to be
don’t you
because Nick needs you
needs your honesty
your open heart
your readiness to know
that you can be there for him
without it being a brave face
it’s just your face
the real face
that is so lovely before the world
And I’m watching how the two of you
connect
as his journey amazes you
scares you
terrifies you sometimes
cause even though you know
that what he is doing is growing
growing taller than ever before
you would have picked any, any other way
for him to do it
we all would
and yet
he is on his chosen path
and it is up to us to honour it
all the while observing where we go in our own hearts
in understanding the ongoing suffering of one
who seems to deserve an end to it
more than any soul in the world
and yet he is doing what he needs to do
he is walking with the grace
that is the whole lesson
we are here to learn
It is so easy to accuse ourselves
because we still have fear
when we try so hard
to face it every day
but this is the meaning
of these times
and the ascension that we read and talk about
It’s all found in the process of facing our fear
and how can we
unless it’s in our face
unless it growls in our ear
first thing in the morning
and waits in the belly at night
when we try to sleep
So that fear of yours is becoming
the companion that you always knew it could be
clear and helpful
more than ever before
so that your wisdom will have its chance
to rise above and elevate you
and from this place
take hold of your power
to shine the light of who you are
further and further
all around you every day
so that no one who even passes you on the street
will miss it
so bright will it be
and so true
Remember
you are moving toward
a kind of integration
between the spirit you know so well
and the physical self that is your home
not just because you need to
to feel better, stronger, happier
but because your willingness to be fully present
is your gift to the rising vibrations
of the planet right now
You are needed angel
right where you are
and the more you can sink into your Self
the greater the gift you give to the whole
by adding your essence
to the collective consciousness
that is brewing on the planet
in these powerful days
You can think of it
as a gift to Nick
and to me
to stand more fully in your own joy
than ever before
because your strength
is the strength of All
and as Nick teaches you
you teach Nick
and so on
round and round
Think of it this way
the more intense these days become
the closer you are to me
because this is the work
in which I am engaged
holding the net
that connects us
across oceans
between hearts
from solar system to solar system
until we all join in one breath
and the struggles of our human days
fall away
like the stories they are
and we can see past them
and straight into the bliss of our love
just like me holding you in my arms
each and every day
I am with you always, darling child
I am with our whole family
and there is a sweetness to our togetherness
that surpasses anything we have known before
and it is not despite the pain
it is because of it
that we taste every day
every moment
with gratitude for the richness
of our family’s world
We have far to travel together
my precious girl
have no doubt
I am still the Mother
and always will be
so let yourself feel
the eternity
of my Love
If you are interested in getting a poem you can reach Cynthia at forangelsrent@sympatico.ca If you ever are to meet an angel in this life she is the closest thing to an angelic being as you can get. Actually her core pattern is she was literally a guardian angel in charge of protecting a group of young souls and she failed in her task. So it is funny in this life she is always surrounded by children who are kind of lost, poor, misguided but beautiful.
I hope you enjoyed this poem. Even though they are for one person they hold wisdom for all. It is the coolest thing to get your own and to even set up a session with Cyn where she channels right infront of you - it's truly amazing!
So they say I will be discharged by the end of the week at the latest. Im goin hoooome. What a period of transformation - it wasn't easy but the reward has been so worth it. Make cancer your ally and embrace your godliness. If you can do this you will live in the bliss that is a soul at it's fullest potential. Fuck this goes to EVERYONE not just cancer patients. Do it, I command it. That is all for now!
Nick, Thanks so much for sharing all this. I finally had longer access to the internet and have read a bunch of your posts. You're an inspiration on so many levels.
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